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A Moment in Time
A Moment in Time As I drove by the lake on my way home, I noticed the sun going down over the water. The sky was an incredible line of what was blue, red, and gray. It reminded me of the ice cream that comes in three different types in a carton, only this…
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What Should Have Been
Lately, I have been longing for the way things should have been. The feeling has come and gone during the last few months. I know it has happened because I am living alone again. My youngest has moved into her own place after returning to her childhood home last year during the intense time of…
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Why did this happen?
Why Did This Happen? When my husband died after fighting cancer, I could not help but ask why.? Why my husband and my children’s father? I had done everything I could to make the right decisions to have a family in the traditional way. We got married and then had kids. We had discussed…
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Nothing Left but the Crying
Nothing Left but the Crying “Sometimes, crying is the only way your eyes can speak when your mouth can’t explain how broken your heart is.” Unknown I do not remember crying much in the weeks after my husband died. In the last few weeks of his life, it became obvious he would not make it…
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I Should Have…….
Never regret anything that has happened in your life, it cannot be changed, undone, or forgotten, so take it as a lesson learned and move on. -Anonymous After someone you love passes often regrets come to the surface, we feel there was so much more we should have said and done. We also dwell on…
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Honoring the Life You Had
Honoring The Life You Had One of the things I have tried to do ever since my husband’s passing was to honor the life we had together. There has never been a question in my mind I should forget him, although there was always a fear I might. How could I forget someone who played…
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Living
In the initial stages of grief, I found my emotions were all over the place. Sometimes I would spend hours feeling sad. Since I still had to function in the world, I also spent a lot of time feeling I was not really living in a way this poem expresses. Living Among What is Dead…
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Happiness Is A Moving Target
As the years go by since the loss of my late husband, I realize happiness was never about attaining things or even achieving a goal. It was about so much less and yet so much more than I ever imagined before his loss. I can now see happiness is always a moving target. It changes…
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Why did you leave me?
Even after a decade of my late husband’s passing, there are still times I am hit right in the gut with a feeling of grief, sadness, or anger about being a widow. It usually starts as a feeling of just not feeling happy and I can not really pinpoint why. Then the…
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Who Am I?
I am a widow and have been one for awhile now. I have felt the need to write about my own experience with grief and how I got though the first few difficult years while learning to live with it. What I have come to realize is there is a popular misconception that you will…
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